Friday, August 14, 2009

Us


There was this one time over 8 years ago when I wanted to marry him and he wasn't sure. It's every girl's nightmare. He loved me, that's for sure. We couldn't be without each other. He would spend every last second with me, every day, with no end in sight. But he wasn't sure. He needed some time to be sure. I was sick of it, sick of knowing and him not.

So one night after a week of hard conversations, we broke up. We both sat there in excruciating pain in my living room as we discussed our future, "You can go to Arizona for the summer and I will stay here and get started at the U", I said between sobs. It was all just too hard to handle. We were up most of the night until he finally drove home at first morning light. I left for work with no sleep. I went in the bathroom and cried. I threw my uneaten sandwich away. There was drama, there were tears. All day long.

He came by that evening and there were some intense silences. Some not knowing. There was gravity. He had also had a horrible day. We discussed some things. We decided we couldn't be apart ever again. He would get his thoughts sorted out and meanwhile there would be no pressure from me.

We kissed again, not 24 hours after our first and only break up.

It was good to be home again.

Happy Anniversary, baby.

10 comments:

Em said...

Basically, you guys rock. Oh, tender story. Love it!

Ash said...

Happy Anniversary!!!
8 Years! Woohoo!!!

Team Bowers said...

So sweet! Happy Anniversary!

kristen said...

Awesome!!!!!!!!! Happy Anniversary to you both!!! Hope you are having a GREAT day!!!!! xoxo

Jessie said...

heysarah

The Medleys said...

Um...this is mine and gideon's story TO THE TEE. He didn't know. I was so frustrated. WE broke up for 12 hours. I sobbed myself to the floor against the front door after he walked out of it. And then he brought me a pop tart and we decided the same thing. Not to be apart and just be together. Love it.

Kirst said...

How cute...Happy anniversary! I love your creative writing--it's so much fun to read your blog. And, the pictures... I don't even have to say how amazing they are.

Laurel said...

i'm keeping this post "unread" for the next time I need a dose of Jane Austen but only have 45 seconds (grin).

I loved this.

happy anniversary...to you and your babe.

Leanne said...

Sarah you have a way with words! I love it. And I love you and your family! Congrats on 8 years!

jakenapril said...

'ecious!

congrats on the 8.

what a great pic, sar.

i guess he just needed to know what it was like without you, huh? didn't last very long, did he! (who can?!?)