Tuesday, September 23, 2014


Last night when I was reading with Lillie for her homework, she said "I LOVE reading!!!". I nearly died. It has been a long road with her during kindergarten and combating her stubbornness and disdain for sounding out words. It is the first time she has ever said that.

I have so much hope for that little thing. I'm so happy for her!

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

After the 4th day of Miriam's visit, she just went up to bed and I wanted to catch up here. Her and her girls have been an absolute joy here. I cannot delve completely into how much I love them and what it means to me that they're here. It changes our lives and helps the girls connect with family in a real way. I love it!!!!

I sat down to write and Ruby's 4th grade binder sat open right next to me. She writes herself notes on the cover that say "check led in outside pocket!!!!" and "new pens in outside pocket/your pencil!!!". She is trying to be organized and it is so incredibly adorable. I could die!

Grace is such a preteen. Like, a little black skirt and a tank top that says "I need candy" that she wore to showcase. I just can't believe how big she's getting!

Today it was so so hot. BOILING. There is no air conditioning in many places here on the cali coast so we just sit and overheat. We at least go to the community pool to cool down around dinner time. Tonight as an added treat, we had pizza delivered to the pool so I didn't have to cook dinner!

We facetimed Nana and Papa in Australia. Just me and Grace and Ruby. It was nice to have some time to have them catch up w the older girls.

All the girls are in dance now.. my dream! They are learning ballet and Lillie is learning hip hop. I'm lucky we aren't loaded with money because if we were I would put them in everything! Soccer, art, guitar, cello, piano.... I would be driving them everywhere every day! It's so fun to watch them pursue their interests.

It's fascinating to me writing with no audience because I don't care what I sound like and I don't second-guess how I may "come off" to my readers. There simply are none.


Wednesday, September 03, 2014

Where do I begin...

Today I picked up a journal I purchased for Tada when she was a baby. Picked it up, dusted it off, and wrote 3 lines. The second entry in four years. After I eeked out a few interesting things, Tada came running in needing help finding baby doll clothes. I caved because it's just her and I now and I am having the happiest days with her. Enjoying this phase of motherhood so much. But I am very, very behind on documenting.

Some things I want to remember:

I bought Tada a ballet outfit today at Target. All pink. She starts tomorrow! I am just loving this. She loved her outfit and said "Oh my gosh mom I love my ballet outfit so much, I am gonna SCWEAM when I get dare!!!!". I mean.. seriously.

Lillie yesterday said that she saw her crush at lunch time. His name is Ryston. She is only in first grade but is highly capable of falling hard in love! She said he's "hot man!" and "Oh baby he's hot!". She is so cute.. little eyeroll as she talks about her little love. I can't get enough.

Grace started middle school this year and the other day she said she wanted a boyfriend. That she thinks it would be cool! I nearly had a heart attack. Jake said, Uh, you wanna kiss someone? And she was all disgusted and said no, ha ha.

I am so happy here in Carlsbad. I feel like we've finally found our little spot. I love my friends and love our little routine. I'm in a bubble here and hardly ever leave south Carlsbad for any reason! :) Meanwhile, Jake is working really hard everywhere. He is starting to get a little business online which I'm really happy about. He is too! He's a rad surfer and goes all the time. He kicks ass. He is so in shape and has so much energy.

:):):):) Until next time.

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Dripping From the Ceiling Like Rain.

(A perfect shot on timer-- A Christmas Eve Miracle.)

I had a brownie for breakfast. And my frown lines look deeper today... You'd think being the mother that I am in charge, that I have control over most things that happen in my home. That I can prevent disaster by paying more attention. No. No, I cannot.

I'm not naming any names but there are two people that live in my house that are total mobsters. They will steal your money and laugh as they run away. They will eat your soul for brunch. And they have the cutest button noses little grey-green eyes that constantly demand adoration. That's the problem.

They are going through a phase at 5 and 3 years old, it's a destructional partnership. A marriage of mayhem and wild ideas. Grace and Ruby went through the same thing and I wrote about it here. It was in early 2008 when I was pregnant with Lillie and their escapades involved urine and food messes, clothing always optional.

Last night I had a couple girlfriends over to chat and have some good laughs since Jake was out of town. Before they arrived, the girls were in their bedtime routine. The big girls were practicing their guitars while the little ones were supposed to be brushing teeth. I go upstairs to check on them and the bathroom door is locked. Knock knock knock, open up, it's Mommy!

I heard a flurry of scrambling and they opened up. Oh, the humanity... They were both soaking wet, there was an inch of water on the floor, all 8 toothbrushes were strewn all over the countertop, toothpaste tubes were opened and lying in the soapy water dripping from the counters, the toilet seat was covered with water, the soap container was empty and there was water and soap DRIPPING FROM THE CEILING LIKE RAIN.

I started shriek-talking.

After the initial outburst, I asked them what they were doing, searching for some sort of purpose. They said they were putting water from the sink into the toilet. Like it's a thing. Like other people do it. Like it makes sense. As I was talking, they put their little hands to their mouth to hide their smiles. It was then I knew I didn't have a chance. I sternly sent the laughing hyenas to get themselves clothed.

Ruby yelled downstairs later, "My toothbrush tastes like soap!". I had no comeback, no answer. I sort of pursed my lips and let my eyes flutter closed and slowly inhaled.

My friends left around 10. I went upstairs, knowing full-well that all the girls were still awake. Sleeping is never their priority. I popped my head in their door way to see Tada's bed completely stripped. All the blankets and pillows on the floor, sheets all the way off, bed safety guard loosened and removed and leaning up against the wall. Tada had taken her jammies off. And there they were, playing princess dolls in the corner of the room while time stood still, 28,000 baby dolls laying lifeless on the floor in a sea of rubble.

I put Tada's bed back together muttering under my breath, "what were you thinking", or "why would you do this", or another variation of incredulity, all while nobody listened.

The other day I knocked on their bedroom door which was stuck shut, in which they should have been having sister playtime. The smell of urine hit me right away. "WHAT DID YOU DO??", I managed. "Tada peed", "No, LILLIE PEED!". The finger pointing went on while I surveyed: Two naked girls, a dark spot on the carpet, and toys and clothes everywhere. The first thing I needed to figure out was wear the second dark spot was... Tada revealed a pile of clothing and when she lifted it up, said "here it is! I needed to hide it". Second spot located. I found other damp clothing around the room and had no idea what got peed on and what didn't, so had to wash it all.

Asked, "why would you guys pee on the floor when the bathroom is like 3 feet away?". Nothin'. Blank stares. I think someone eked out, "Cause we didn't want to stop playing".

And did I mention we have two iPads and the screens are both smashed? I'll give you two guesses.

(Can you spot picture-wrecker extraordinaire?)