Monday, April 26, 2010

My View-- 38 weeks.



Holy moly is the first thing that comes to my mind.

The last weeks of pregnancy is a journey of self discovery that you can't fully share with anyone. You are trapped inside your brain. The one that you used to depend on. Now there's a team of people inside your head playing laser tag:

When will I be done being pregnant-I don't know-I can't last another day-Yes you can-I don't even know myself anymore-I'm huge-The baby has hiccups again-My skin is stretchy-Everything hurts-Why won't the other children let me be-My husband is no longer funny-Not at all-I can't wait to meet her tiny face-Will I make it to the hospital-What am I forgetting-Charge the video camera-Make a thousand lists-Be ready for the pain-Try to act sane-Pay attention when people talk to you-

I complain. And then I realize how incredibly lucky I am. And I try to let that sink in. Because I am. So. Lucky.

The anticipation is killing me (mentally and physically). And if I avoid mirrors I have a way better day.

12 comments:

Kristy said...

Sarah-- I know how you feel. I'm not 38 weeks which is way harder, but I'm already starting to feel like that. Or I have been for awhile. I'm so happy when I see you have a healthy sized belly just like me. I have some friends here and on FB that are pregnant right now too, I'm less amount of weeks than them and I swear I look way bigger already. I love it that I can look at your pictures and feel "normal." I mean that in a good way too. You look so cute. I loved the picture from a couple of weeks ago. Well, anyway hang in there you're doing great. At least you have Cafe Rio :).

Jodi said...

The last couple weeks are truly the longest weeks ever! Hang in there it will all be worth it when you see her little face. You should have Jake get you some chips with guacamole. That should make you smile.

Jodi said...

P.S. Any names yet? I am dying to know...I love all of your girls names.

vicky said...

I don't think any woman feels beautiful towards the end of their pregnancy but seriously...you looked beautiful on Saturday. I can't wait to hold your sweet little one!

Amy and Sean said...

Yes! Keep reminding yourself how truly lucky you are to be blessed with such beautiful, wonderful, little girls and to have another one coming in 2 weeks or less! Focus on the positive and I think you'll definitely keep your sanity! I'm so excited for you and can't wait to see pics of your new little miracle!

LeDoux said...

bwahahha. "pay attention when people are talking to you" !!! it is so hard and so hard even after the baby is born to pay attention.

so funny.

Celeste said...

I am still avoiding mirrors!! :) You are so fabulous pregnant. She will be here before you know it and I can't wait!

Emily said...

OH I love it! You are so close...I can't wait to meet her! Hang in there, it could be any day. Please call if you need help with anything. I can take your kids anytime, day or night if something happens. Can't wait to her the news!!!!

LuCDay said...

TWO MORE WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jennifer said...

Ditto! My boy is taking almost ALL of my patience. I usually consider myself a patient person and now I can't find it!

I can't wait to share pictures!

Alisa said...

Do you love having your name posted all over my blog?

Hold tight, not much longer! Although it feels like an eternity. That part I remember all too clear. I'm so excited to see pictures of your beautiful girl #4. I think she'll have Ruby's complexion, Grace's lips and it's a toss up what she'll share with Lillie. Vibrance comes to mind. I wish you much energy and a lot of smoothies upon delivery. xoxo

missy said...

Perfectly round. I'm getting a little sad myself thinking that I might not hear your pregnancy posts or see you with this perfect pregnant belly. Are you sure this might be your last?!