I am leaving on Thursday for a weekend to remember- My younger brother Jared, our friend Katy and me are going to a concert in Indio all weekend. Katy and I are going to the Friday show, but Jared and his friends are staying for Saturday and Sunday. I'm mostly going to see my favorite band, Nickel Creek. How I wish my brother Gideon wasn't on a mission so he could go with us!! I am so excited. Music is medicine for me. When I like an artist and I go to their concert, I cry. I will have waited so long to hear them in person, and I will just stand there are blubber away while they sing. Their music moves me so much, I can't help myself. I imagine this will happen again this weekend.
I have left Gracie only one night of her entire four-year life. Our anniversary two years ago. I have never spent a night away from Ruby. I am so nervous to find out what that feels like. I know I will feel an empty feeling and just the mere distance between me and my girls is going to be rough. I know this sounds idiotic... but I just have to be with them, all the time. Don't misinterpret, I have to have my breaks, girl's nights, half a day off, but a weekend is going to be too long. I know I need it and that's why I bought my ticket so long ago. I think I need my kids way more than they need me. They'll be fine without me, hanging out with their dad and my sister, and I will be in California worrying my little heart out.
That aside, we are going to the beach all day Saturday and I plan to drink the ocean air. All day. Even when there is sand in my eyes, nose and ears and when all I can taste is salt. I'm staying til the sun goes down. All the way down. Then we'll drive back to my cousin's house in Murrietta, and drive home on Sunday.
What a sweet reunion it will be to see my lovely little babies again. It's ridiculous that I am going to have the most fun weekend ever, and all I can think about is coming home again. I am a very independent person, I promise...
Looking forward to a sunny weekend- have a great one!